to trust or not to trust -x

so i found out smth.
everything you've said to me has been a lie all along.
those happy smiles u showed me.
seems like they were all so fake.
all this time i've been nth more but a tool that is only used when its handy.used by you.
i dun even know how im feeling nw..
a lil sad
a lil confused
mostly hurt
a lil angry..

act i kinda figured all along that e frenship we shared wasnt tt real.that you've never really bothered about me for real.and i dun think u'll ever noe.all those tyms when i told u i loved u.i meant it for real.nt jus cos i went a lil crazy and said tt.i dun say it when i dun mean it.so it hurts me nw to know ive had a knife plunged into my back by you all along.

e one thing tt just plain sucks.i nv thought it'll end up this way.so shld i just gif up trying to be yr fren nw? yes.i tink so too.cos i dun c e point of trying so hard when all i get in return is yr fucked up lies.


i've got other people who love me more.
and whom i love more.

thanx for e memories anyway.

then again.maybe not..

this sucks sucks sucks like hell.

e only gd thing is
you'll nv know who you are.
cos i intend to keep it to myself and nt tell u.
it'll ruin too much and i dun want that.
guess what? you're nt e only one who can play this game of deception.i can smile and pretend that everything's a ok too.

just one thing that makes me better than you.
i aint gonna stab tt knife into yr back.
cos i dun see the point of doing so.
what goes arnd comes arnd.

i dunno why you did what you did.
but i know frm now on,it wun matter anymore.
you haf yr own frenz to care for u.
i haf mine.

so i guess heres my farewell to you now.

never gonna let u bring me down again.
never.
ever.