true love
its like that plane that never flies
suddenly workes
and soars up through e skies

true love
its harder then you think
you gotta hold on to it
before u lose it
in a blink -


that exactly sums up the way im feeling nw and gifs me slightly more strength and a reason to hold on tight.bleaghhh.im so screwed.someone shld buy me a screwdriver to unscrew myself.

right.so the boldened phrase will be my living mantra for e rest of my life (:

the ultimate bitch factor -x

bleaghs.realized i just got my period today.shld explain why ive been so moody lately and always wanting to cry.cant stand turning on those water taps.pisses e hell outta me esp when i know so many pple out dere care n it only hurts them more to c me this way.so yes in future shld i write tt im sad in here,fret nt.i will b a ok (: i just need a place to vent n i cant seem to get out all e emotions properly in e written diary i keep anymore.act i suggest that daily readers of my blog shld nt visit it for the time being as i suspect its gonna be filled with nth but negativity these few days.

really dreading night times.cant seem to get to slp properly.either tossing arnd n thinking abt this person or the other.which is qt bad considering one haunts me at night in my dreams frequently and e other haunts me in the day.oh hw cool is tt.nw mer's getting haunted by ghosts!

well at least no one can say i lost my sense of sarcasm.tts gd rite?

omg i seriously need to snap out of this state im sinking into.maybe someone shld jus cu my heart open n take it away so i wun b able to feel anything anymre.yes n then i shall just bury myself in my bks n drown.

now i sound suicidal! damn it.ok i am so NOT.so pple reading this just ignore me pls.

feel kinda bad feeling this way.darn i really dun want pple to worry.just let me be moody for a lil while alrite.i ve decided it aint fun being ms sunshine all e time.as much as i love to be optimistic,this nxt one wk is more or less gonna be hell.

maybe by some miracle,i might act do well in my past tests!
and by some other miracle,experience some sweetness like in e past.

then maybe the heartache will go away.
but then again,i highly doubt so.

ok pls do nt mention wadever uve read in my blog back to me when u c me and ask me if im ok cos obviously im nt reali ok.i dun reali wana tok abt it.i jus wana vent.so treat me like normal alrite? tt'll prob be e best remedy.


i wish e truth didnt have to hurt so much --why you?