im starting to believe in karma after all.
i guess i never really thought of the meaning of the phrase "what goes around comes around".
its just about starting to make more sense to me now.

funny how sometimes when you could have had a happy ending,you decided to forego it and take another path instead.then when you come back and try to get back what you could have had, you realize you just don't have it anymore. its hard to accept that you lost smth that cld have brought so much happiness.yet at e same time, it all has to do with karma. in a way, isnt it deserving that for the amount on anguish u inflicted upon someone in e past, its all coming back to you now as a punishment for wad you did. maybe after you have finished "serving your sentence", u might just be able to get back your happy ending. then agn, its hard to tell since by now u've both inflicted such anguish upon each other, e score is more or less even, and both people will just move on and find someone else. but is that what should really happen? i wonder how fate will work things out for these two people in e end.will fate decide to let them have a happy ending? or is it just in their destiny to find each other yet not be able to be tgth because of the many complications that one of the two brought upon them.

it scares me to think of what that person said.
though i doubt it was intended for e way things are btwn us.
but somehow it triggered off alot of thoughts.
sometimes the obvious might just be a dissipitated fog shrouding the truth.
doesnt this mean that sometimes what might seem to be the obvious
is actually just a cover up for the real truth.
that what seems to be so is actually not so.
that we shouldnt judge something by the surface and that theres always smth more in depth to it.
i thought it was pretty obvious the way things were and how it wld go.
i thought wrong.
and maybe he is right.
the obvious might just be a cover up for the real truth.
it really wasnt supposed to be this way.it was supposed to be much less confusing.
i think for all e bad things i've done in e past
it really is all coming back to me now..


im just in a thinking mood today.

training has been getting better (:
throwing is improving thanks to mr koh's patience.
and now my techniques more or less getting better.
with jade and grumpy arnd,jav throwers r always fun to be w :D
nt to forget e other cuties in aj track too! :D

been seeing alot of wanj.
haha that woman has been whining loads abd acting depressive.
dunno if i shld be really worried or not but i guess nt.
i trust that if there's really smth wrong she'll def tell me.
so woman, if u read this, u knw what i expect of u (:
lil woon and wj lee have been my great advisors n listeners.haha.

went town today with wj jo vince.
caught the wedding date.
twas` pretty alright..
watched it at PS. tsktsk.memories memories.haha.
then decided to go down to town.
was msging huis when sudd she appeared behind me at e mrt!
was so happy to see that lil kuku! (:
been missing her like crazyy!!

then went orchard n walked arnd.saw qt a few people.
like eg.chia yishen. haha he whacked my shoulder damn hard la! :(
pain! then saw mok with her og.and jade and huiying.haha.cuties!

mmm im home now! going out for a yummy dinner with the fam ltr (:

btw.wanj's new msn nick now says. "i love wanjing.no matter wad."-meryl
see how nice i am to her? lol..
but i love her.i really do (:

lowe: im replying here cos duh u don't haf a blog.haha.why cant i take tt long
to eat prata.im special rmb? u said so urself! lol. anws i still tink ure
pretty dang cute.u knw.the way u shake ur booty in front of me and all.
whoo! sexaye -winks- dun let jc2 life stress u out too much aye!
and we're still supp to take a pic tgth! -toddles arnd madly n hands marcie
digicam- :D

the hardest thing is loving someone and having the courage to let them love u back