cruel twists of fate

you were everything I used to take for granted.
I thought you wld never matter to me.
Until one day when I found out how much you actually did.
I found out too late.
cliche as it may sound, my whole heart sank when I saw wht you had to say
it was this sensation of my heart plummeting straight to hit rock bottom
leaving me soaked in total numbness, before the hurt started to sink in and take over.
I told myself not to be selfish, tht i had to be happy for you,
as friends should be for each other.
I thought i succeded.

until last night.

every memory we once shared came flooding back to haunt me.
it overwhelmed my entire being and caused my eyes to start stinging,
in a way that hasnt been done for a long time.
You told me to treat you as nothing, tht i shld wipe these tears away.
It was sweet, yet at the same time filled me with a bitter feeling.
Cos` one year ago, this would never have been smth you wld have said.

still, you don't have to worry about me.
because i promise you, the next time i talk to you,
i'll be nothing but happy.

and e next time tht song plays,
my eyes won't be filled with tears anymore.
the next time i hear that song my darling,
I'll be listening with a smile on my face.

:)

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time