delusional reality

I told gary yesterday tht i predict I will be sick today.
and horrors i really woke up with a fever.
to top it off i'm having terrible runs.
this means frequent trips to my favourite place, the toilet.
Guess I better put all my notes in there and my mp3 player as well
in preparation for the time I'll be spending there.

I was just sitting ard thinking yesterday.
I don't know if anyone realizes it but suddenly being together with someone requires so many rules.
like firstly, theres the matter of the official question.
People seem to think that without being asked officially then they arent really tgth.
But why cant it be as simple as two people simply knowing they like each other and naturally just being tgth.
Love is suppose to be a feeling of magic, of natural chemistry. Its something special, and it shouldnt have rules to abide by and shldnt have to be made official or anythg like tht.
That's just my way of thinking.

And lately I wonder, if i pin all my hopes on you, wht happens if u let me down?
Its like putting you on a pedestal and watching you fall off.
It'll hurt us both.
It really scares me to the core to know tht instead of the day I've been waiting for, I'll instead hear words from you tht could possibly shatter my heart into a million pieces.
I'm scared, but you wouldn't even know.
If tht day ever comes, somehow I hope I'll find the courage to smile bravely and walk away.

i somehow managed to screw my whole template up.
and everything disappeared!
hence I decided to make do with this new template. :)

its pretty cool. i like :)