minor issue

but let's just say its a great great disappointment lahh. :(
in every single aspect.

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its 2329h. not exactly late, but I'm not in the mood for any work today.
and i don't have any pressing stuff to settle so..
I like peppering my entries with the ever so familiar "lahhs" ,
though I do wonder if they are the cause of a decline in my language ability.

GP lessons are so stressful now.
Just one wrong move and we'll get into trouble.
I wonder how long I can keep this up, doing everything conscientiously.

It seems like every single day, I swing back and forth between my conflicting beliefs and hopes.
Sometimes I think I'm fine this way, yet sometimes I know it just should be different.
I know we are the ones who complicate matters ourselves,
but often it's just really hard to control that urge to get in there and muddle everything.

I've got a load on my mind and a million things to do.
I wonder why I still have it in me to put everything aside just for that one single reason.
My inability to control myself frustrates me.

And just to end off, I was utterly disgusted by the man in the video "All Out" played during mass civics.
Fancy asking his wife to play russian roulette jst so they could win US$100,000,
even after she told him she loved him so much she would die for him,
but that it should be something worthwhile.
Maybe it seemed a tad amusing,
but the part when she pointed the gun to her head and said "I hate you" with so much feeling really made me wish the guy would get struck by lightning.

No material possession, nothing ever, would possess me to give up my loved ones.

This is so random, but I do hope Gary will survive the wrath of all the teachers.
I just feel he's in such shit its really qt bad.

Ah hell, I'll be better off in bed.

what if I told you it was all meant to be